reminders of a life never lived

I sit here, listening to “Kabhi Kabhi Mere” by Mukesh, and wonder why no other genre of music makes me feel this way.

An immediate connection with my sorrows, my happinesses, and the deepness that sits at the origin point of my being. 

It is times like these which reinstates the notion that a soul exist. That roots exist. That a Watan exists.

The intonations, the melodies, the poetry - all spiral into an intertwining force that immediately forces a lump into my throat: a gut reaction to the powers of a history I’ve never existed in.

It’s powerful and most of all, it’s real.

kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai

ki jaise tujhko banaya gaya hai mere liye

tu abse pehle sitaaron mein bas rahi thi kahin

tujhe zameen pe bulaya gaya hai mere liye

sometimes i feel deep in my heart

that you have been made for me

before this you have been placed somewhere in stars

and you have been brought down for me